The Attitudes of Some--the Rich and Powerful

What has been most tragic, in my opinion, are the attitudes of the physicians I have seen. They seem to look for reasons to not treat or help people like me in this area, especially african americans. Instead of taking a closer look at my skin spots, my bruising, and the large tumor which is located on top of my uterus and performing diagnostic testing, they laugh and snicker at any of these requests saying they don't believe I have ever had NHL anyways and chose not to believe I have any symptoms now. Besides that, they have seemed to imply that I'm just depressed and want to be sick. And as I've mentioned several times already, the physician's I have seen refuse to acknowledge any of my true symptoms or problems. But why would a depressed person make up lies on well-to-do physicians she wants to treat her illness, and furthermore for what. For me it hasn't been for any money, only my medical records--but to no avail. For all these reasons, I suspect that I am not the first person these physicians and Hackley Hospital have refused to help get appropriate medical care nor will I be the first to die from their inaction. Later I will post the names of the physicians I have seen as well as their misdeeds.

Recently, Jeff Alexander at The Muskegon Chronicle reported a federal lawsuit was filed by the Michigan Nurses Association "claiming hospital officials violated federal law by refusing to release documents related to the planned merger with Mercy General Health Partners" which is a hospital owned by Trinity Health, a Catholic organization. According to this article, an attorney for the Michigan Nurses Association, Anita Szczepanski, says they have "repeatedly asked Hackley Hospital for these materials" and they "are still waiting to receive them". Sound Familiar? And the main reason for this merger is, at least partially anyways, because Hackley Hospital has been supposedly going broke treating low income patients who cannot pay or receive Medicaid, and again, the physicians and Hackley Hospital take no responsibility for this either. And while Hackley Hospital has been going broke, non of the physicians offered to take pay cuts, and still got pay raises, including the president.

And while I had an attorney for a short while named Pat Nolan, he communicated to my mother from the start that he had no interest in suing Hackley Hospital. While he never clearly explained why, I got the impression he wanted to believe what they were telling him, more than he wanted to read my letters and investigate my case. Furthermore, instead of helping me take them to court to get my files, he basically sent me a letter after a couple months had passed saying he had helped me get some of my medical records from Hackley to this point (even though they were not my cancer records), and was no longer interested in helping me. What a horrible power struggle this whole thing had turned into, and unfortunately, I was the one who was powerless without the law on my side.

And because I believe God has something greater in store for me, I am no longer afraid of dying. I continue to pray and keep my faith in the Lord, especially since He and my family are basically all that I have as a support system. And because no one besides myself knows of the brutal pain and suffering I have endured, I can only hope that my death will open people's eyes and hearts to what kept me in this world in the first place.